Madness

Edición Insane

Edición Insane (Photo credit: ● Jabo ®●)

The madness of despair rides through her
She breathes discontent and lability, her frown
one moment turns to joy then darkens once again
She is contradictions in all forms
and cannot find the centre of herself
let alone her world, she is fractured
And she is sad and in her fear
she is dangerous and I am afraid
While all the while I sympathise
and drag my own soul through torment
for my inability to cure or control
her inner discontent and need

If friendship could speak truth to such power
it would be a fine thing and a way through
A way to meet in minds that value the same
and help each other to live to standards
oft espoused but little seen, but madness rides through
cracking every foothold of honour and loyalty
and imperatives beyond us both
break all things apart

This fever confounds me and I am lost
I would be someone who could help and yet
this way of thought is alien to me
I cannot find the person
I once thought that I knew, and in any case
this is perhaps self-deceit, it could be
that I always saw the madness but chose to
avert my view, so there it is:
that within me is delusion and some darker madness too.

© Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

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Softly

Snow crystals 2b

Snow crystals 2b (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Softly falling rain
Against the window pane
Undulates a rhythm
Sings a sad refrain

Gently falling snow
As above, below
Crystalline and bright
Icy inner glow

Deftly written line
Ode to the Divine
Only of the best
Aging, vintage wine

Softly beating heart
Where all dreamers start
Love when we’re together
And more when we’re apart

© Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

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Solace

Sorrow

Sorrow (Photo credit: Christolakis)

Where find such solace
When inevitable decay
Spreads its diseased tendrils
Across each and every pathway?
Once friends and now so other
Though I tried
To still the tide
You are yourself
Can be no other
Can be no other

I’d give you solace
Where myself am lost
And while I bring the sword
Insist you pay the cost
Unleashing hells
And though I warned
We’re both forlorn
You carve your way
You can be no-one else
You can be no-one else

There is no solace
For grief that rides on war
Just in our natures
What we were put here for
Nothing here divine
It’s just we two
What we must do
You have your path
And I have mine
And I have mine

© Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

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Feeding Time For Fools – for Prompt 24 – Vixen

Vixen (Inari)

Vixen (Inari) (Photo credit: Patrick Gannon)

They have named me vixen
These shrewd, careful boys
In a word they have captured
All elements, all meanings
As though in describing thus
I am therefore contained
It’s just feeding time for fools
And only fools here remain

They de-clawed my fingertips
Dressed me in the finest clothes
Felt capable of taming me
All politeness, perfect courtesy
But my teeth grow ever sharper
Gnawing on human remains
It’s just feeding time for fools
And these fools are aptly named

They have branded me as vixen
Half seductress and half shrew
What they most fear deep about me
Is what draws them to my side
And I might be gentle with them
I can show pity, yet be kind
It’s just feeding time for fools
And only fools are left behind

© Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

For Prompt 24 – Vixen at http://mindlovemisery.wordpress.com/2013/10/06/prompt-24-vixen/

Go check out the prompt and mindlovemisery’s excellent writing!!  🙂

 

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Artistry Birth

Miniature painting of a portrait artist (saint...

Miniature painting of a portrait artist (saint Luke, recognizable because of the ox, painting the Virgin Mary) with easel (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

The artist’s brush
Paints me
And I awaken

The canvas soft
Supports me
And I breathe

The colours bright
Adorn me
And I dance

And when you gaze
Upon my portrait
I’m alive

© Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

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A Kinder Day

cocoon-white

cocoon-white (Photo credit: 白石崖)

I am sleeping in my cocoon
Transformation painful, dark
These nightmares of disintegration
This transcendental elevation
As I am broken down within
To arise the butterfly in new skin

Nigredo dark and deep despair
You feel that you will never be
Again a free and conscious entity
Just dissolution and desire
Turn and twist upon the pyre
To yet reform and yet aspire

I am but some god’s afterthought
His indecision and his grace
I am this halfling that he wrought
One thing and then another born
A symbol of growth and yet decay
As all my old life slips away
I wait upon a kinder day

© Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

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Rondelet Rounds

Red rose

Red rose (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Desolate soul
With your loss I’m broken and bare
Desolate soul
Would my pain engulf me here whole
Render me unconscious of care
Make all those that see me beware
Desolate soul

Woken again
Hear your voice on my telephone
Woken again
With no need to hide or pretend
I would make my life here your own
If you’d but forgive, I’d atone
Woken again

Lost in our hearts
No more denial in our words
Lost in our hearts
This is where perfection may start
This is much more than I deserved
All our needs and dreams here preserved
Lost in our hearts

(c) Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

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Dragon Song

I hear the softest melody
Above my bed head canopy
Its lyrics will encompass me
And from its call I’m never free

I heard it when I was a child
The call of hunger and the wild
And you may say I’ve been beguiled
But in my soul I’m reconciled

I live to hear this dragon song
The only place I can belong
My heart beats steady, true and strong
And I will never see this wrong

I hear the softest melody
At night he comes to comfort me
And I will love him endlessly
My dragon deep within the sea

© Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

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Possession

possession

possession (Photo credit: BEYOURPET)

Take me within you, take me inside
Give me surrender, nothing denied
I am your compass, forsaking all pride
Take me within you, take me inside

Let me true know you, let me true know
All that’s in heaven, all that’s below
All you take quickly, all you take slow
Let me true know you, let me true know

Then join within me, then join within
Where I am ending, there you begin
All of the fabric together we’ll spin
Just join within me, just join within

You are the music, I am the dance
All is determined, nothing is chance
You are desire, I am the trance
You are the music, I am the dance

Take me within you, take me inside
Makes us continual, don’t stand aside
All this adventure, all we have tried
Begins when within you, take me inside

© Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

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Curiosity – Cover Reveal!!

Curiosity Cover

Curiosity Cover

Hi

I’m delighted to say the last stages of publication are progressing well for my second novel, Curiosity. I’m excited so wanted to show you the cover, which I really love – lulu.com do a great job of realising your vision for a book I must say!!

As I’ve blogged about before, this book will be a significant departure from my first novel, The Seed. Whereas The Seed was a dark romance, very introspective – very much character and psychology driven and poetic and layered in its literary style, Curiosity is completely different. It is a black comedy/satire, is action/humor driven and dialogue/modern-day media snippet laden.

If my novels were children, The Seed would be the earnest, passionate,  poetic one destined to be an artist, and Curiosity would be the light-hearted, charismatic, cynical and sometimes a bit nasty one destined to be a public relations/spin doctor or a gossip columnist perhaps…..

The description of Curiosity is:

Peter Graham believes the world ended some time ago and nobody noticed. He is a young man driven by one essential quality—curiosity. But when he couples that with his feeling that nothing matters anymore, he does something reckless that catapults him into the media eye as an unlikely modern hero.

Peter goes through the dance of media and political opportunity to further exploits, which he uncovers through his overwhelming curiosity. All the while, he writes in his private journal, determined to prove the world has ended; his outside adventures have done nothing to dissuade him from the truth of his view. Meanwhile, his family and friends struggle to keep up with his recklessness, understand him, and keep him safe from his own inherent, happy nihilism.

Curiosity is the darkly comedic tale of a somewhat benign sociopath who, while dancing through a celebrity-worshipping age, takes risks and burrows into a surreptitious modern world where every secret worth finding is deep and dark.

I’ll blog further as its availability progresses. Like my last novel it will start off as a print on demand (POD) paperback and ebook at lulu.com, then be on Amazon kindle, then eventually in global distribution covering Amazon POD, Nook and Apple Istore.

Stay tuned, and stay Curious!!

Cheers

Helen V

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