Falling

God help me
as I fall, fall down
deeper down
Are you there
in the ether
with a soothing hand?
Are the shadows
merely chimeras
I do not understand
But yet I do
And yet I do
And I’m just falling, falling down

So many things
of which I cannot speak
I’m called to heroism
but my soul is weak
It’s bland and dull
its edges worn off by years
of compromise
and unshed tears
And yet you call
in a voice I cannot hear
I’m falling down
falling down this year

My heart is small
and black , it’s turned
in upon itself
And stilled communion
simple choices
masquerade as health
Inside I scream
where no-one hears
I’m but a raving fool
I’m flaming heat
turned on the pyre
But I’ll play it cool
I’m falling down
I’m twisting down this spool

Oh god or guardian
why desert me now?
I’m so alone
within my confusion
and my shame
I do not know
if I should take this blame
I only know
that I am one with flame
I’m falling down
Was this your perfect game?
I’m falling down
I’m falling down again

This creeping dark
spills over all the crevices
within my soul
like water over rocks
There is no shelter
from the tumult
I create
within myself
And yet its only
my answering song
to the carnage
that surrounds me
And my face a poker
No smile, no frown
Within I’m falling
falling down

(c) Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

About helenvalentina

Like most people, I have a number of sides to me. The most interesting one probably emerges through my writing, hence this blog. I love to read, and also to write, and so this is a way to share both.
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7 Responses to Falling

  1. It isn’t the fall that concerns me, but what happens when the falling ends. πŸ™‚

  2. I can relate very strongly with this one, fantastic job emotional

  3. mdog32 says:

    This is an amazing poem. This is EXACTLY how I feel the last few weeks with regards to my weight loss. I’ve had a hard few weeks staying on track and now getting BACK on track. I’m going to add your poem to my daily readings. Thank you for writing this. It really spoke to me. ~Gina

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