Depth of feeling with you is a sickness;
bleeding wound that never heals; no clinician
can diagnose or remedy the cavity within,
this lacuna of the soul or fill this lack
which kills all truer feeling
before it can begin
An open heart is vulnerable; I know this now,
I lay for years splayed on your table,
sawn ribcage drawn back and skin flaps
open like the curtains of the stage
to your own private show;
beating heart observed
like a vulture may consider its prey
Incremental, intermittent,
deceptive reinforcement of the
hug, slap, hug you mastered
in your teen years and never relinquished;
king of confusion you rule a barren land
you created out of paint and canvas
and ephemera, and your laughter born of pain
You look into the agony of love
to find its truth; it will elude
you there, for in such darker climes
it never truly dwells; seek instead
in the simplicity of sincerity
and do not disdain this as a lack
of intelligence, kindness is not stupid,
it is decent, a concept beyond
your mercurial, caustic mind;
but alas, all these are foreign thoughts
to you, only agents in a distant world
and friends you will never truly know.
(c) Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved
helenvalentina 
“I lay for years splayed on your table, sawn ribcage drawn back and skin flaps open…” Bupa’s really gone down hill.
LOL, it has indeed!! 🙂 🙂
Love that first stanza Sis… sets the pace and mood for the rest of this brilliant poem 😉 xxx
Thanks Roxi, so appreciated!! 🙂 🙂 xxx
I agree with Roxi…..brilliant!!
Thanks so much Skye!! 🙂 🙂
HelenValentina… This is an amazing piece… The darkness of it; the efficacy of the rebuke… I felt as if I witnessed an angel scorning the father of lies, calling him to account for the absurdity of his wanton whims. Very nicely done.
Thank you so much, that is so kind and with your interpretation the poem takes on a whole other level which is so fitting. Really, really appreciated!! 🙂 🙂
Wow Helen this is incredibly powerful and different from your usual work somehow, very raw and visceral and the language and imagery is phenomenal
Thanks so much. It’s based on the worst relationship of my life so that’s probably why, LOL!! 🙂
Awww hugs I hope that bastard is history now
He is, LOL…well, to me anyway, probably ruining someone else’s life now unfortunately…. 😦
Hopefully not
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Thank you so much, that is so very kind! 🙂
Darkly fabulous! I say shoot the bastard 🙂
And from reading comments I see he is in your past…so good.
Thank you!!! 🙂 🙂