Seek

Depth of feeling with you is a sickness;
bleeding wound that never heals; no clinician
can diagnose or remedy the cavity within,
this lacuna of the soul or fill this lack
which kills all truer feeling
before it can begin

An open heart is vulnerable; I know this now,
I lay for years splayed on your table,
sawn ribcage drawn back and skin flaps
open like the curtains of the stage
to your own private show;
beating heart observed
like a vulture may consider its prey

Incremental, intermittent,
deceptive reinforcement of the
hug, slap, hug you mastered
in your teen years and never relinquished;
king of confusion you rule a barren land
you created out of paint and canvas
and ephemera, and your laughter born of pain

You look into the agony of love
to find its truth; it will elude
you there, for in such darker climes
it never truly dwells; seek instead
in the simplicity of sincerity
and do not disdain this as a lack
of intelligence, kindness is not stupid,
it is decent, a concept beyond
your mercurial, caustic mind;
but alas, all these are foreign thoughts
to you, only agents in a distant world
and friends you will never truly know.

(c) Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

About helenvalentina

Like most people, I have a number of sides to me. The most interesting one probably emerges through my writing, hence this blog. I love to read, and also to write, and so this is a way to share both.
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17 Responses to Seek

  1. Brian Hughes says:

    “I lay for years splayed on your table, sawn ribcage drawn back and skin flaps open…” Bupa’s really gone down hill.

  2. Love that first stanza Sis… sets the pace and mood for the rest of this brilliant poem ๐Ÿ˜‰ xxx

  3. I agree with Roxi…..brilliant!!

  4. Sahm King says:

    HelenValentina… This is an amazing piece… The darkness of it; the efficacy of the rebuke… I felt as if I witnessed an angel scorning the father of lies, calling him to account for the absurdity of his wanton whims. Very nicely done.

  5. Wow Helen this is incredibly powerful and different from your usual work somehow, very raw and visceral and the language and imagery is phenomenal

  6. Ajaytao2010 says:

    I Nominated you for A Bunch of Awards โ€“ 13 Nominations

    please choose any 2 awards out of the 13
    accept it and oblige

    there are no linkbacks for this award

    http://ajaytao2010.wordpress.com/2013/08/13/a-bunch-of-awards-13-nominations/

  7. Darkly fabulous! I say shoot the bastard ๐Ÿ™‚

    And from reading comments I see he is in your past…so good.

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