Denied

He would cry down the phone
as he told her
how unattached
he was

He would ring incessantly
to repeat
how she may be hurt
should she expect too much

He did his best to destroy
any men who were her friends
While all the time he told her
he did not really care, not yet

He’d move to embrace her
then quickly turn away
Shake hands on being only friends
then engulf her once more

For her he was a curiosity
and she too inexperienced to know
She was darkly fascinated
by his dissonance
The chasm between
his words and actions

And something finally cruel in her
felt small triumph as he’d cry
down the phone to her,
the waiting one
and the one that he’d deny

(c) Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved

About Helen

I'm drawn to blogging as a way to share ideas and consider what makes us who we are. Whether it's in our working life or our creativity, expression is a means to connect.
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21 Responses to Denied

  1. willowdot21 says:

    Hi my dear new friend Helena I have nominated you for the” I am part of the wordpress family award!” details at http://willowdot21.wordpress.com/2013/04/02/i-am-part-of-the-wordpress-family-award/ big hugs xxx

    • Thank you so much – I do so appreciate you thinking of me and will try to follow up on the weekend re any award nomination rules etc to follow – my work life is mad at the moment so I have too little time during the week. If I don’t manage to follow up, though, please know that I do very much appreciate your support and kindness and its only that time has defeated me. ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. cadaira says:

    I just want to say that this reflects my exact situation a few years back… It was like you were looking into my mind! Lovely ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. I can relate very deeply with this piece it reminds me of my first love. I had a crush on the most popular boy in school I know cliche but I was 12 so that’s my excuse, I was very much an outcast and that was probably my most unfortunate period looks-wise (I am talking chubby, hideous perm, bad fashion). We had this whole secret phone relationship we spent hours everyday laughing, confiding, he gave up hanging out with friends for that time but in school it was different he’d mostly ignore me but every now and then he’d flirt or given me candy and just shock everyone. He got my male friend sent to military school but constantly provoking him in fights but using his own charm to get out of trouble. He was controlling beyond belief and probably obsessed but funny and charming too. It was very strange. Heartfelt, gorgeous poem!

    • Thanks so much! Isn’t it funny how many people go through these elusive and odd relationships? Relationships are strange… ๐Ÿ™‚

      • It really is, just as an outsider observing the modern dating world I have to say I would never be able to keep up with all the mind games. I miss those simple times when it was just check this box if you like me and then bam your going out, having fun and getting to know each other naturally without 8 gallons of artifice slathered over the whole relationship. Maybe this time didn’t exist except in my own mind lol If I was single now I am convinced I would die alone in a house full of cats. To be honest I find making friends to be overly elaborate and ritualistic, I just do not understand the rules, it is just maddening. What the hell is wrong with being strait-forward?

      • I agree entirely…I have no idea what the problem is with being straighforward…I guess for some people the thrill is in the game….or they are just very confused. ๐Ÿ™‚

      • I think some of its fear too, but to me it just seems more sensible to be yourself, be strait forward with your feelings that way your surrounded by genuine people who actually do like you, rather than agonizing and suffering in a sort of isolation/loneliness that you created for yourself as you can never be sure if anyone likes you at all because no one including yourself is really even sure who you are in the first place. That was such a mouthful I am not sure it made sense haha I am referring to those weird people who play games here, forgive my pronouns. This discussion actually inspired my poem for today!

      • Cool, its really interesting to see how common these issues are and I appreciate you taking time to talk them through in the comments – also glad to have inspired you with this theme! ๐Ÿ™‚

  4. lawsonsotherdog says:

    great poem, relationships are elusive, at least to me

  5. Adrian Michael says:

    I thoroughly enjoy reading your posts!

  6. This is genius! !t reminds me of the challenges my friend is going through in his attempt to revealing his true self to his love (and also myself “years” ago) ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Thank you so much! Relationships are so complex aren’t they, and I guess we are at our most vulnerable when we have deep feelings for others so we self-protect…all so difficult and yet mattering so much! ๐Ÿ™‚

  7. sorry about the spelling..

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