fear (Photo credit: siette)
Hypervigilance
Would sleep with one eye open
If I only could
PTSD haunts
Flashes of dark memories
Invade my tired mind
Was this what you sought
Dominion over comfort
Just to show you could?
So much time has passed
Just a stranger with your name
Chills still to the bone
(c) Helen Valentina 2013, All Rights Reserved
helenvalentina 
ahhh to be a dragon … speaking of which, I am off to get my copy of The Hobbit, Smaug is so adorable. hehehe
Yes, Smaug got bad press if you ask me….Dragons are cool! LOL. 🙂
You got to the “heart” of PTSD here…brilliant pen!
Thank you so much! 🙂
I can relate very deeply with this piece having childhood traumas of my own. I have always hated the way it continues to impact my life even after after so many years. I hate the unknowable and unspeakable ways that it has altered me, even if I like the life I have now I still see too much of those traumas in me.
Yes, trauma does tend to hang on into us, like it has claws and won’t let go. 😦 Thank you so much for commenting – I wish you all the best with meeting those challenges.
Goodluck to you as well and thank you again for all your encouragements
I can relate to this from my past. Always vigilant, on the look out for something or someone that may trigger bad memories, or who may have similar bad intentions. I have made a lot of progress from that time thanks to some counselling, which has helped me to let a few things go a bit. And not see the past in my future.
Thank you – glad you are finding the way through this way of thinking/being – it isn’t easy to do that. 🙂